annoyance.
with myself, with my parents, with my pride, with my brother, with my self image, with my relationship with God...
i want to tear my hair out because there's all this pent up pride.
i think deep down, what i really am is jealous and covetous. covetous of what other people have-- money, fame, physical beauty, material things. and it all started with the simple question, "how come i don't have these things?"
dangerous question. dangerous thoughts.
and we all know where the path leads down...
sometimes i'm so frustrated with what i want want want...
but godliness with contentment is of great gain.
i want to seek contentment, the contentment that comes from heavenward. to be fine with the way things are and secure that He's got it under control. i mean, seriously, his word's more precious that gold and sweeter than honey... best thing to have right?
all that's left is to develop the faith that lives each day believing this truth.
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