Wednesday, April 22, 2009

trading beauty for ashes

"to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor"
~Isiah 61:3

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my ashes have been transformed to beauty
just as my mourning to be the oil of gladness
and my spirit of despair to be transformed to a garment of praise

i AM an oak of righteousness.... that feels like a small ugly seeding...

but i think, until i realize these truths and believe in faith... i can not progress in learning His love...

haha... this came up on Yahoo's LAUNCHcast when i was typing out this entry... just enjoyed the late 80s vibe that this song has...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

picky about worship?

just came back from the Hillsong concert that was at the L.A. Nokia theatre. honestly, i'm ambivalent about it...

methinks there was too much actions towards God, God done for me...

not enough of pure God worship of his character

Monday, April 13, 2009

of building housing...

"First, fa-th is like a foundation. We build our relationship with G-d and our trust in J-sus on it. Without it, we wouldn’t even be able to see G-d....

Second, gr-ce is like materials, in a spir-tual sense. [It's] not just money, good grades,... but also the deliverance from trouble, the mending of broken hearts, the ability to hear his words, and more. Without G-d’s gr-ce, our lives wouldn’t be much.

Third, pr-yer is like a building. (Oh man, I hope this analogy works out; I only thought of it 3 paragraphs ago.)[sic] Pr-yer is a way to grow closer to G-d – the more you talk to people, the more you get to know them.


Faith is super important. Without faith, my time in KG is meaningless. ... G-d can give me all I want, J-sus can reveal himself to me in person, and I can experience all these crazy spiritual things, but without faith I couldn’t recognize"

~Tim L. (update sent 4/13/09)

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

hiding pain underneath a smile

To know of loss is to know of love.
yet what we do with this loss,
determines the depth of love that we'll continue to experience.

i cry and berate Him for taking away
what was not mine to begin with?

it's this loss that encroaches at my heart
and i have difficulty learning of what to do with it