homesick (countrysick?)

Dear Lord,

if it is in your will, please bring back there someday. why am i homesick for a country that is not my own? why do you stir my heart for the nations when you keep me here?

i feel so homesick that i can't sleep, can't help but remember and pray... Be faithful to your children in Mongolia, Lord!

hemming clothes and hearts

as i repair the old winter conference banner by sewing loose pieces together, God brought this to mind "You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me" (ps 139:5). beautiful, beautiful.

hemming brings pieces of cloth together. dresses are hemmed last of all to ensure proper length. in the same way, He has always hemmed my life. been worrying about future mate lately.

SURELY the boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places. what have i to worry about? if God is with us, who can be against?

But LORD, i am impatient, hot headed and do not trust your hemming to be perfect and straight. also, sewing takes FOREVER.... let's just roughly staple things together and move on?

*sigh* but your works are wonderful, i know that full well. i wait, Lord, but pray that you make sense of a situation where i see no ending