identity crisis

when i was in China, i met a "super Buddhist" who asked me WHAT i was. i said easily: I am 1) a child of God, 2) God's beloved, and 3) God's servant.

yet now, i feel as if i've lost that resolve that caused me to proclaim so boldly what i thought was my identity.

why is it that Satan uses the people closest to our hearts to tear down our resolve? And why is that he has placed such a doubt within my mother's heart that, without comfort, with out the guarantee of a degree, that there is no future?

I despise being torn like this.