uncertainty

yay for february.

but bummer that today was so wasted. as in, my devotion to the Lord at that new room in SGM was so affected because of the new location.

and so when Min was speaking of attachment to White Harvest or Navigators rather than to God, it put my pride to shame. yet it was weird that i still didn't get anything from the sermon (YET).

ah well, at least the sermon blessed others. maybe there are things that still need lifting up to God.

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but i fear during our small group, i was harsher than need be.

well, someone shared about how she didn't feel close to God and had basically fallen away since 1 1/2 years. our leader, Jo, then said that no matter what we'll do, God will be there, he'll hold onto us even though we let go of Him and run away.

and for some reason... i added to that and pulled out my trusty "fact, faith, feeling" train that i ALWAYS rely on to illustrate the point of basing our faith on fact from the Word and not merely on fleshly feeling.

And then, for some reason, probably because God has been speaking to me on this as well, is that, when we sin, and we fall away for extended periods of time, there are consequences. consequences such that we do not experience grace as richly, we are given less of a circumstance to bless the body of Christ, and have them bless us back... and other more serious consequences and punishments (see Hebrews 10)

all these warnings and punishments. i don't know if these words came from my legalistic spirit or was it honesty and bluntness spoken out of truth.

i do hope it was the latter

and i pray that my words will not drive her farther from our beloved Lord.