Saturday, September 11, 2010

smack in the face.. haha

just found out two of my childhood friends were pregnant/have gotten married and have given birth.

Dear Lord, i am 22, single, no children, in a horrid doctoral program where i am aging at 4x the speed i normally would...

what am i doing with my life?!!?!?!?!

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lol...

and i then i realize how far He's brought me.
i've been overseas twice.
i've seen a glimpse of God's awesome love for the nations
i've been blessed to be a part of it
i've been broken over and over and remade by the Maker's hands

i'm where i'm supposed to be right now after 4 years.

security. in Jesus, in his divine plan, in His love.
it's all i want, it's all i need.
if His love is better than life...
it's definitely better than being a mother
it's better than being married
therefore, my lips will glorify the King

coming back to the heart of worship.
i don't want to think myself childish or immature

...merely enjoying life. <3

(something i was also thinking about, and my prayer for all of the traveling ministry time in china --> that i want to continue being in a VIBRANT love relationship with Jesus)

1 comment:

Unknown said...

"in a horrid doctoral program where i am aging at 4x the speed i normally would..." --> dont worry ... i can take care of you!! it'll give my gero degree some use... :)