Jesus, where are you?

my heart and eyes fail as i look for you in this desert land. my soul is weary.

what is this anger that permeates my very being? please take it from me. bring me back.

beause i cannot even repent unless you allow me to.

learning to love the earthly shepherds

who are these people that i live with, these girls i call my "sisters"? what connection do i have with them? and because the Lord asks me to love, do i do what he commands? yet in the face of this world, what have they to benefit me? am i not self sufficient? am i not merely a partner while we work to labor?

and in the end, Jesus tells me, "No." For i am to "do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than [myself]."

for in the truest aspect of my heart, i don't love my sisters to the depths of which they deserve to be love. i love in convenience, i love sparingly, and i like love when it doesn't require much moving.

we claim we love the sheep. i know i do. i love the lambs that GOD has given me and praise HIS name daily for them. but a challenge we were given in Bible study this past week was...

"Do we forget to love the fellow shepherds?"

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"No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is MADE COMPLETE IN US." (1 John 4:13)

late night n' biochemistry

i can't believe he holds it all together. glycolysis just keeps going and going and going and...

promise!

given to me to hold on to for this semseter:

1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.

2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

~Pslam 62:1-2

praises

in the darkness, in the sinfulness of what i believe to be the world and its pressures.

lights still shine.

thanx to the believers in USC pharm '13. seeing you guys minister and go to events encourages my faith...